Mel Torme singing The Christmas Song ...

yesterday was a perfect disasterous day for me. paling mentoknya pas jedi called and told me that he saw ficky with another girl. i was shocked, hmm i'm still shocked. i can't really describe how i feel right now. realizing that i deserve the best heart from a man, gw pantes terima orang yang emang care dan sayang ama gw, for who i really am. who has a sincere heart. i dont know, whether i can trust him or not. bisa aja dia bilang dia rame2 tapi sebenernya nggak. i can think negative about him, but i guess ... i rather not. it would hurt me big time, it would hurt me when i'm really still on a healing process.

What Are You Doing New Year's Eve? - Various Artist from Christmas for Lovers

hmm that's a question worth asking. darn it, suddenly i feel like a loser, i feel lonely! :'/ i dont know where to turn to in these kind of situations. once again, i must face it all by myself.